I wasn’t sure whether I could write a post about this but I guess there’s no point in having a blog if you don’t talk about things.
I always say that problems aren’t relative. And if it affects you then it’s a problem no matter how small.
But then I always like to ignore problems.

I’ve been letting things get on top of me a bit too much recently. I won’t go in to detail but…
Home has  been extremely rough recently.
I lost some friends last year. and that’s been getting me down even more than usual.
Work is getting tough. Money low. Spare time scarce and Friends stressed.
I’ve had a lot of pressure on the way I look recently. which does not make you feel better when you’re already low.
The boyfriend is not being very boyfriend like at all.
Stuff from the past is playing on my mind.
And to be honest, if I’m on my todd i feel quite down.
All very vague I know, and sounds stupid. but I’m new to this.
So basically sleep isn’t something that’s happening a lot recently.

I’ve been trying to be positive.
I’m out of the house enough as it is which helps. and when I can’t sleep I’m writing song. and when I’m not doing that I volunteer, or have a rehearsal, or go see people.
I work with school kids and autistic kids, and I just signed up to volunteer with a homelessness society.
I know a lot worse things happen than what I have been through / I am going through. So it seems silly really.

Just sometimes you need something to come along and make you smile.
So I’d like that soon please.

While i’m here…might as well go off an around the world fancy dress theme party coming up…cheap ideas?

Keep smiling….it’ll give you less wrinkles than frowning 🙂



Okay so a good friend came to visit this weekend.
She ended up kissing my ex-boyfriends brother. (He’s married)
Eventually when I find them and pull them apart we find her a nice single guy. 
I feel like I take slight responsibility if they end up married. (none at all if it finishes)
They did go on a date that’s something right? 

I am wondering however.. about one  night stands.
I’ve never had one. I’m not sure I could bring myself to.
Am I the only student like this?
I don’t mind intimacy but I guess I’ve always been in relationships.
So it’s a bit different..?

Back to the night out. 
What’s the deal with ex boyfriends?
Obviously you’re really close friends still after a few years of being together.
But they want you more when they can’t have you?
Is it normal to still be friends if it feels like they still want to flirt with you?
Maybe it will change when he gets in a relationship too.
We didn’t end greatly (story of my life) but we are good friends.
I wouldn’t change my current man for anything. Just been on my mind a lot recently. Especially when the other night a (male) friend began talking to me and my ex tried to tell me not to talk to him…Does he have that right?
When he’s not flirting with me he’s spending the rest of his time with his other x (box 360)

Also I have a lot of opinions so how about I ask you for help..any tips on long distance?

So far so good. But to keep him interested?
Stupid question I suppose. 

Normally my life is more entertaining. But this week has just been alcohol and girly time.
Hasta luego